So Close

Always a little out of my reach
Am I not learning what they teach?
We’ve come so close, but you’re still gone
We’ve come so close, but I’m still wrong…

Again and again and again
I’m so tired of imagining when
Everything will or could be made clear
And I wouldn’t have to forget what I hear

I know- it’s alright; what did I expect?
I knew from the start that you would let
Me go on alone, along my stubborn way
And we’re both probably better off today

And that last statement I want to fight
But I know I ignore what makes it right:
Fears, and lack of or too much sensibility
I seem to let my emotions run away with me

I naively want us to be so much more
But you can’t last long alone in a war
And before it gets worse, I’ll let you go
It’s the only choice I ever seem to know

And I really don’t want you to forget me
But you need to do so; there’s more to see
And I swear I didn’t want another silent end
But neither of our paths is seeming to bend

Always a little out of my reach
Am I not learning what they teach?
We’ve come so close, but you’re still gone
We’ve come so close, but I’m still wrong.

-- Written by Sandy Heights