Want What’s Not Real

I want to go back,
But I know I can’t.
I want to move forward,
But I don’t know how.
I want to stop dwelling on it,
But I can’t right now.

I want to lose these feelings,
But I don’t know why I can’t.
I don’t want to keep being afraid,
But I don’t have the answer when I ask how.
I want to stop being let down,
But you don't know what to do right now.

I want to trust you,
But I know I can’t.
I want you to move forward,
But you don’t know how.
I want you to start dwelling on it,
But you won’t right now.

I didn’t want to lose you,
But you are already lost.
I want you to say, “Don’t be afraid,”
But you don’t have the answer when I ask how.
I want you to stop letting me down,
But I know that’s all you can do right now.

-- Written by Sandy Heights