Begging You

Don’t you worry about me.
I’ll be sure to let you know there’s no need;
As long as I’m moving, I’m alright
And I’ll deal with each long, sleepless night-
On my own- Cause I no longer know how to make it right.

But I have tried so very hard…
I guess you can’t open what’s been barred
Shut for such a long, long time.
I don’t want to try anymore. I don’t want to be fine.
I want to know at least once you heard my repeated line.

What I wrote to you: I meant it all.
You close your eyes so you don’t see me fall
Down from the wall we’ve built so high.
One brick’s removed but another’s added, because I-
I realize we’ll never see eye to eye.

The tears my eyes want to cry- if you could see them-
No, it wouldn’t help any more than it did back then…
When I foolishly allowed you to see my hurt
I’m given every time we spread around this dirt.
It’s amazing how you’ve ignored every alert.

Stop pretending the problems aren’t there.
Can’t you see truth is what we need to bear?
Prove to me my trust in others shouldn’t be so rare.
Show me that you actually do care.
Tell me my heart is something that I can share
Without being reminded each time the world’s unfair
Because this heart’s becoming weaker with each wear.
I’m begging you; just be there…

--Written by Sandy Heights
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