I feel so far from where I should be
But my heart won’t take another ‘could be’ from me.
I reach and reach and seem to grow so tall
And this time I say I won’t let myself fall.
But I don’t really want this distance
Between my heart and what I won’t let myself sense.
Because I feel I’m ‘shutting up’ my heart:
It seems like I’m hiding it from the start.
I don’t want to ‘play it safe’- and maybe I don’t-
I’ll talk and laugh, but ‘open up’… is something I won’t.
We all want the love, but not the pain.
But through the pain, love learns to grow in the rain.
Right now, I can’t exactly describe how I feel.
But in this life, there’s always a turning wheel.
I want there to be more than what I see right now
And I have to trust there is; though, I don’t know how.
This turning wheel makes me stop, run, ‘grow up,’ and spin again;
You always have to lose something in order to win.
-Wrriten by Sandy Heights
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