Distant Pearl

I let myself
Down again this time.
I’ll just let it go,
Step back across the line,

And let myself learn.
If I never did
What I regret
I doubt I’d get rid

Of what I’ve let set.
Oh, I really wish
My mouth was smaller,
Good will was taller,

Ego much shorter,
Mercy much larger,
Anger non-existent,
Faith much, much bolder,
And worry so much weaker.

But this is who I am:
Just a teenage girl
Struggling through life,
Reaching for the pearl

That I know I will
Eventually hold
At the very end,
When I’m in God’s hold;

His arms wrapped tight.
Because despite all these vices,
He loves me the same.
Though I still may not please

Myself or others
And so often I’m
Lying somewhere on the ground.
Still He chooses to love me so.

We all struggle
And everyone fails at so much,
But he doesn’t let us go
As He gives us His touch.

I get overwhelmed,
But I’ve still never been
Given an ounce more
Than I knew could hold.

So I’ll just hold on
And just keep reaching
For that distant pearl
As life keeps teaching.

–Written by Sandy Heights

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