I am trying to figure out how to act
Wondering if this could be fact
As I think of you, you seem to know just what to do
And what gets me is that what you do… is just you
You’re not anymore perfect than I am
But it’s the perfect that always proves to be a sham
And I don’t want what’s perfect- I want what’s real
And it’s what’s real that’s making me scared of what I feel.
I feel like I’ve completely lost my mind
As I sit here awake wanting to avoid another bind
Why do my thoughts revolve around a store?
Why did I see you just as I was tossed back on shore?
There are so many things to make this go so wrong
And I’m so scared to make this stop or move along
I want you to see who I am- the good and bad
I don’t want you at a distance from the past I’ve had
You always manage to surprise me somehow
And I’m so torn as to what I should do now
But maybe this could be everything we need
As I’m already beginning to follow your lead
I’m smiling as I write these words down here
But with the smile there’s a growing fear
But I won’t let that fear keep me locked up again
My fear isn’t going to keep me where I’ve been.
–Written by Sandy Heights
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