Growing up, you called me ‘Miss America.’
To be honest, I never saw those words in myself.
I never hoped to win the beauty pageant,
Dressed up in fancy gowns, glitter, or gems,
Or tried to hide behind hours of painted on makeup and hair.
But as I stare across the precipice of this stage,
I see I may have still spent
Most of my life presenting each and every version
Of myself that I thought for sure
Would help me make it to the performance
Of the person I thought it was so important for me to be.
Would the casts surrounding me throughout my years
Find an ever-transitioning character
Dancing, singing, joking, speaking–
Performing in whatever form–
I have temporarily thought would help me feel seen?
Growing up you called me, ‘Miss America.’
To be honest, I see the best and worst of those words in myself today.
— Written by Sandy Heights