Why do I let myself do this?
To Fixate on what I already know is wrong?
How do I tell myself to trust this?
To love the person I have become?
Why do I let myself tear you down?
To uncover the mistakes and bury the good?
How do I tell myself it’s time to change?
To dig into this dirt on which I’ve stood?
Why do I let myself feel this depression?
To hold onto every past hurt I can’t undo?
How do I tell myself it’s time to forgive?
To wipe away the mud and really touch you?
Why do I let myself sink into all these doubts?
To believe what logic tells me isn’t so?
How do I tell myself this can’t stay buried?
To make a foundation from every past blow?
Why do I let myself fixate
On what still hurts when there’s so much growth?
How do I let myself see
Everything we can be– and should be?
–Written by Sandy Heights
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